Church was interesting today... Dave and Chad happened to speak and they used some illustrations about us wives.. and let's just say I think it was the first time I was embarrassed about being talked about. It was the whole topic of giving grace which is a set up to talking about marriage relationships etc. Isn't marriage the place where we see grace put in play the most? Well at least for me it is. I think I was in shock because if you don't know me, then you would proabbly walk away from today thinking I'm a terrible person/wife. Dave did not mean to have it come across that way. He was just poking fun at relationships. I just think I was not in the mood today to hear it or to have our marriage put on such an open display with people I don't know. I know I was totally over reacting but it just rubbed me wrong. I showed Dave grace today and had a good laugh about it.

Which lead me to think about knowing me. I had someone come up to me the other day who reads my blog and they went on to say how they loved reading my blogs because they feel like they know me when they don't see me often. Yes, this is true, but I could not happen to think... you really don't know me. Because I really can't be honest and opened in my blogs. There is always a part of me that holds back on things because in the end I don't want to affend anyone. A stranger or a friend. But I have a lot to say on a lot of things that I just normally know that I can't share about. Do any of you who actually read this feel that way at times? And then I get in random moods like I am tonight and I want to go off at all the things I've wanted to say about a lot of things... And then I chill out and know there are people out there that I can probably count on one hand that truly do know me. That would never question a part of my lifestyle or things I would say because I make sense to them in teh big picture. Isn't it good to be known. I am so thankful for those people in my life.

At the end of a day when things may seem a little out of the box for me I have one comfort. The Lord my father knows me. And for that reason alone, I don't have to always explain everything in a blog even when I want to.